I need a good night sleep. I mean a really good one.
Tomorrow’s the day.
In the morning I’ll wake up and start my Social Studies Unit where I will work with my 5th graders a few days a week over the course of about a month. We will be diving head first into explorers! Something very new to me.
How do I think it will go? Lets just say I haven’t been this anxious but excited in a while. Its the kind of anxious where you feel like your completely prepared but then begin to imagine- A. Running out of time, or B. Not having enough time.
Which one is worse?
To me, nothing is worse than running out of time. I stop for a minute and imagine multiple senarios and what I would do.
I sit here in my thoughts now, exhausted and barely holding my eyes open at 6:44 PM. There are a million things going through my mind at the moment. About 90% of my mind is thinking about school, my lessons, my observation tomorrow. 5% is asking myself, “are you really going to go to bed this early without making dinner?”. The rest is straight nerves.
I really need a good night sleep. I keep coming back to that. Then I think some more. Is this what life becomes when you are a teacher? Are you constantly exhausted and school always on the mind? I imagine my first year of teaching feeling exactly like this. It both excites me and makes me nervous.
Time is something that is never on someone’s side, let alone a teachers side. Despite the nerves, despite the exhaustion, and despite the panic about having too much or too little time, I’m proud of myself.
I’m proud that I’ve worked so hard to prepare myself for tomorrow. If the issue of time is thrown my way… I think I might be ready.
For now thought, I think I’ll go get a good night sleep.
(I was feeling a little poetic with my writing style tonight… or maybe I am just tired?)
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Alyssa! You’ll be great. Here’s to a good night’s sleep and an awesome day of learning tomorrow.
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Alyssa, You will be great tomorrow. Take a deep breath, and do your best. I don’t think you will always feel like this as a teacher, it will get easier and smoother. I remember how nervous I was the first class we had to teach. My lesson was simple, and my SP was observing, but I think I only slept a few hours that night. For the most part, now I am much calmer during teaching. I think I am starting to feel more confident. Hopefully by tomorrow night you will feel the same.
Kerry
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